Saturday, June 24, 2006

Bittersweet Endings

Now i have another- done laundry. Too done, wrinkled!
Too tired to produce coherancy.
I want to go swimming in His love. God,. I feel like I whittle away my time on reading mail, chasing rabbits online, tidbits of news, forwards with no meaning, shows on TV with no substance. And then, when Im too tired to think, I want to go to bed. Alas, too tired to pray, too tired to dwell, to wait, to receive times of refreshing from the hand of the Lord.
I guess it's why I need to seek Him early in the morning. When I'm fresh. Before the rabbit chases of life lead me astray. So easily distracted am I. And so very tired!

Friday, June 16, 2006

The pools of His purposes

It's Friday night. I am home alone now. I have enjoyed the presence of my daughter and two beautiful babies in the evenings after work for the past few days. The quiet hum of the swamp cooler fit the unwinding mood of my body and mind. I have still to do work on my report cards but find myself here instead. I need to unwind a little.
Sarah, you inspire me.
To be in the pools of God's purposes.... What does that mean?
What do you think it might mean. It's now something that, though I felt I completely understood when I first read it, I will now ruminate and chew on for awhile.
What might it speak to anyone out there?
Are God's purposes like a pool? Can one be submerged in His will? Refreshed in the results of the outpouring and swimming in the flow of His plans for one's life?
What do His purposes look like?
How would one know? Would one know?
I know the dryness of the desert times and the darkness of the valley of the shadow of death. I know the peace of resting under the shadow of His wing. I think I know the joys of swimming in synce with His will, the ultimate love, peace, and joy of having His heart for someone, and seeing Him do something wonderful through me to someone else. Usually in prayer, in answered prayers. But often in the smallest act; the passing on to a little child a word of encouragement that lights up their face and builds up their confidence, the phone call no longer put off to give encouragement to a friend. or the hugging of my little grandbabies and saying "I love you so much." Those are the times when Mother Theresa's saying comes to life, " I can do no great things, only small things with great love. "
By the way, I do agree with the second part of that saying and I think I understand the spirit behind it. Without love our greatest acts are a "clanging gong or a noisy cymbal." But I also hold to the belief that, as Jesus said, "Greater works than (I did) you will do.."
So, Sarah, you were right. I do have something to say.